There are many reasons why I do not like living far from my parents. I miss them. I would love for Sadie and Harrison to grow up close to them. I want the kids to be able to play with their cousins regularly. And I don't like living far from my parents for selfish reasons also. I can't just call and say - hey, I'm bringing the kids over so I can clean, cook, run errands, workout, etc.
My house is in a constant state of...mess. I can't go to the gym since I need childcare, so that's one of my excuses for being fat. (actually, I could, but I'm not ready to drop off Harrison at some random room with dirty toys and a teenager.) I go to the grocery store and end up with three bags of goldfish crackers, string cheese, some fruit and milk, but nothing to make a meal with. It's 10:30 by the time I'm ready to leave the house, so that doesn't leave much time to do anything before needing to be home for Sadie's nap.
All of this to say, I need a little help. Kris thinks I need a lot of help. And all of this makes me feel like such a failure. I'm facing the facts, though, something's gotta give. So, the search is on. I think my expectations are a bit unrealistic. I want someone who I can call on a couple days a week in the morning, but not necessarily the same day every week. I have things come up, I might have a play date for the kids, and I don't want to turn these things down because I have a scheduled sitter at my home.
Anyway, I've been searching on two different websites. Let me tell you who I am going to immediately pass over and not even give a second chance. Please don't post a glamour shot. If I can't decide if they're wearing shorts or panties, I will not contact them. Surely they can find someone to take a snapshot - I will not look at a profile if they are dressed for a night out on the town and decide that's a good time to snap a picture of themselves sitting in their car. If the picture has a gold/orange tint to it and makes me think that it was taken in 1987, I will pass right over. Some look like they would steal from me. Nope. OK, so I don't want a glamour shot, I don't want you dressed for a night on the town, but at least a little makeup would be nice. Not even makeup. Just dress as though you care. A little.
Then I find pictures that are acceptable. When reading the profile, if it's obvious they are not proficient in English, I will have to keep searching. I need them to be able to communicate with my children. If grammar and punctuation are a mess, most likely you will not be hired by me.
I want a younger girl who is educated and loves children. Sounds easy enough. But it's not. If I want them young and educated, they're probably in school and can't help in the mornings. Or if they are young and educated, I would hope they'd be able to get a "real" job.
Blah blah blah....this is tough. Are there any young educated girls who know how to take a decent picture out there who would enjoy playing with my kids for a few hours each week? We shall see. Wish me luck as the search continues!