Thursday, May 3, 2012

A Bit of Baby Anxiety

Please know that I/we are thrilled about our baby who will be here in July.  We can't wait to meet him/her, however.......

I'm beginning to get a little anxious!  From the beginning, I've had moments of thinking - I'm happy with one baby, Sadie is our world, we love her so much, how could we love another as much as we love her?  In the past, I heard other parents express the same concern, and I always thought - OF COURSE you can love a second baby as much, why would you think that?  But now I totally understand.

How am I going to deal with two little ones?  People do it all the time and have much "worse" situations like twins/triplets/etc. in addition to other children.  They survive.  So will I.  But how will I go grocery shopping?  Target?  Anything?  Will I be able to take a nap?  I pray that they get on the same afternoon nap schedule.  This is seriously a concern.  I need my rest!  Speaking of rest.....Sadie still does not sleep well at night.  Will I have two children on different schedules at night?  Will I be up every single hour?  Stress!

Names.  We can't decide.  And it's not that we can't decide between multiple names that we have picked out.  We can't even decide on one!  I might like one but Kris doesn't, and vice versa.  Oh, and since we don't know if we're having a boy or a girl, we need TWO names!

Do I have a nursery ready?  Nope.  We moved the crib into the guest room, along with all the other furniture that was already in there.  It's crowded.  Oh well.  But I do know that it's time to get serious about figuring out how we're going to set things up.  This baby deserves a cute room just as much as Sadie did.

Speaking of being crowded.....Sadie has taken over our living room since we have no play room (I really wish she'd learn to play in her bedroom).  So, where will we put a baby swing and other baby gear?

Went to the doctor today.  Everything is good.  But when the doc told me that it's time for me to start coming every two weeks, it hit me.  Wow!  this is really happening!  And soon!  I need to get ready!  Names, nursery, organization, mental preparation.....where do I begin?

Oh dear....this is overwhelming me.  I think it's time for a nap!  I better get as many as I can before this baby shows up and rocks our world.


Jen said...

I was struggling with anxiety and panic attacks too but found help using crinc anxiety. Just google "crinc anxiety" and you'll see what I mean. Maybe it will help you too?

Elizabeth said...

It will be great! Remember, love doesn't divide, it multiplies. And just think how awesome it will be to watch Sadie become a big sister/helper. Sure, you will probably be a lot more tired and take a lot fewer trips to Target for awhile, but only for awhile. I can't wait to meet him/her!

Erin said...

The anxiety is totally normal, but you will settle in and find a new routine. When shopping, wear the baby and put S in the cart. And just run in for what you need and run out! We spent a lot of time at home those first few months because it was easier and simpler. Try not to put more stress on yourself, you can only do what you can do...and at the end of the day if everyone is fed, loved, and happy, you have had a good day...