Wednesday, February 23, 2011

Tears

I seem to be more emotional these past few days than I normally am.  I've been on the brink of tears numerous times over random things.  On several occasions, those tears have actually poured over.  There have been tears of heartache, frustration, empathy, anger, happiness.  The whole spectrum of feelings, it seems like.


  • I've been catching up on recorded television.  There was a marriage proposal on Ellen.  It was obvious what was going on and a bit cheesy, I thought, but it made me cry.  Then an audience member was given the opportunity to go to the Grammy's.  She was so excited that it made me cry.
  • It is an everyday struggle to get Sadie to nap.  She will be rubbing her eyes, putting her head on my shoulder, whimpering, yet she refuses to sleep.  Well, she refuses to STAY asleep.  I feel so inadequate as a mom sometimes - why can't I get my own daughter to take a nap?!
  • Back to television....any American Idol fans?  You know the young boy whose group told him they didn't want him in their group anymore?  He later did poorly in the group performance yet the judges put him through to the next round?  Yeah, I cried.
  • I have lost my coupon organizer.  My coupon organizer that held several $10 diaper coupons, a $5 formula coupon, and many others.  I feel like I've lost at least $50.
  • Speaking of diaper coupons, I realized that my coupons were lost as I was getting ready to go to Target today.  Guess it really didn't matter today since Target didn't have one package or box of diapers in the size I needed.  Really, Target?  Nor did they have the detergent I wanted.  Tears of frustration!
  • Sadie "walked" from one end of the coffee table to the other this morning.  She's growing up so quickly - I almost cried tears of happiness AND sadness over that little accomplishment.
  • Back to television.  We were not home Monday night, but Kris assured me that the television was set to record The Bachelor.  I went to watch it this morning.....there was no Bachelor on our tv.  aaahhhhh!!!!!
I could go on, but I won't.  I won't because some of these things seem so petty, and you're probably wondering why I would want to cry over such minor things.  But I also want to cry when I think of how great life is.  I couldn't ask for a better family.  I love my home.  I have great friends.  I have a gracious God.  Those are tears of JOY!

4 comments:

Jennilenni said...

I've always been that way. I cry so easily. It got even worse when I was pregnant. I thought I would go back to normal once I had Jax...nope...still a huge cry baby! I cry every Sunday at church-just thinking about how good the Lord is. I always joke to Dustie that the church is going to think I have spiritual issues! You're in good company my friend!

Anonymous said...

Are you sure you are not pregnant? About the diapers, I used cloth ones for my youngest and it was so nice not to have to buy them all the time.
Casey

Elizabeth said...

I think being moms has made both of us softies- I cry at weird stuff now too!

Traci said...

Here I go again....Ellen just surprised a school teacher with a new car. Tears. And no, I am NOT pregnant! ha!