A Bit of Baby Anxiety

Please know that I/we are thrilled about our baby who will be here in July.  We can't wait to meet him/her, however.......


I'm beginning to get a little anxious!  From the beginning, I've had moments of thinking - I'm happy with one baby, Sadie is our world, we love her so much, how could we love another as much as we love her?  In the past, I heard other parents express the same concern, and I always thought - OF COURSE you can love a second baby as much, why would you think that?  But now I totally understand.

How am I going to deal with two little ones?  People do it all the time and have much "worse" situations like twins/triplets/etc. in addition to other children.  They survive.  So will I.  But how will I go grocery shopping?  Target?  Anything?  Will I be able to take a nap?  I pray that they get on the same afternoon nap schedule.  This is seriously a concern.  I need my rest!  Speaking of rest.....Sadie still does not sleep well at night.  Will I have two children on different schedules at night?  Will I be up every single hour?  Stress!

Names.  We can't decide.  And it's not that we can't decide between multiple names that we have picked out.  We can't even decide on one!  I might like one but Kris doesn't, and vice versa.  Oh, and since we don't know if we're having a boy or a girl, we need TWO names!

Do I have a nursery ready?  Nope.  We moved the crib into the guest room, along with all the other furniture that was already in there.  It's crowded.  Oh well.  But I do know that it's time to get serious about figuring out how we're going to set things up.  This baby deserves a cute room just as much as Sadie did.

Speaking of being crowded.....Sadie has taken over our living room since we have no play room (I really wish she'd learn to play in her bedroom).  So, where will we put a baby swing and other baby gear?

Went to the doctor today.  Everything is good.  But when the doc told me that it's time for me to start coming every two weeks, it hit me.  Wow!  this is really happening!  And soon!  I need to get ready!  Names, nursery, organization, mental preparation.....where do I begin?

Oh dear....this is overwhelming me.  I think it's time for a nap!  I better get as many as I can before this baby shows up and rocks our world.

My Life in Pictures

Kris's office

The living room.  Come on in, have a seat.  Wait, scratch that.

Stairs that should have been completed on Monday.   They might look finished, but they're not.

Our bedroom.   But where is the bedroom furniture?  Behind the plastic doorway, in our bathroom.

I know, I know, this won't last forever.  But since last Friday we've been without a place to sit, Kris and I are in the full size guest bed (until one of us ends up in bed with Sadie), our closet also has furniture in it, there is dust EVERYWHERE, things are scattered, people in and out of the house all day, Sadie feels trapped since she can't run around and play in the house.... thankfully, we are getting away next week.  That's when all the sanding and staining *should* take place.  I'm praying that when we come back, everything will be in its place - because this is getting old!

That Makes Me Crazy!!

Today has been a day.....things making me crazy:

• barking dogs
• maternity pants - they just will not stay up.  I need suspenders!  Actually, let's just say maternity clothes in general - shirts included.  Gross.
• waiting.  and more waiting.
• the fact that it's a nice day and I can't go out and enjoy it.  Why?  Because I'm waiting....on people, on projects, on paint to dry, etc.
• And the fact that I'm letting stupid little things make me crazy today when I have a friend who is going through things way worse than this.  Who am I to complain about such things?  

So, how about things that I should be thankful for today instead:

• the fact that I have dogs?  uhm.....maybe.  ok.
• the fact that my baby is growing and I need bigger clothes
• the projects being done around my house.  Even if it requires a lot of waiting, I'm blessed to have improvements going on.
• so thankful for my strong friend and how she fiercely loves her special little boy!!

Beautiful Cloudy Day

I love springtime!  Everything about it - especially flowers.  Kris is not adventurous when it comes to fun little day trips, and my mom never seems to have time for anything.  Thankfully, I have a willing friend Amy who is ready to go exploring for wildflowers with me.  A few years ago we went when her little boy was....close to two, maybe?  Now we've added two more to our brood.  Two more little girls.  So we couldn't let this spring pass without making a trip to Brenham to see the flowers.

We've had today's date marked on our calendar for weeks.  The last few days we've been watching the weather.  10% chance of rain, no big deal.  Then yesterday it was up to 20%.  Still, no big deal.  We wake up this morning and it was up to 40%.  What?!  But we didn't let that stop us.  We met up at a central location to follow each other (there's no fitting three car seats in either of our vehicles).  As soon as we met, the rain started.  NNOOOO!!!  It rained on us all the way to where the flowers really started, and then it stopped!  Hooray!  It stayed cloudy the rest of the day, but I was still able to get some good pics.  Here are a few:

Three friends deep in "conversation"

I don't think I'd have a problem living in this area.  I wonder why more people don't?  It's so pretty!  Soo....it might have been a cloudy and dreary day, but it sure was a beautiful one!  I'm already looking forward to going again next year.  By then there will be four little ones to chase around!

No Glow

I look through magazines, see people out and about while running errands, and I wonder.....why can't I have that pregnancy "glow" like so many others do?  I have totally jumped past that cute little baby bump phase and gone straight to gross.  Well, I have never had the body that would show off a baby bump, it just looks like extra fat on me.  Anyway.....

I'm not going to say that I'm huge, but I definitely can't fit into my regular clothes anymore.  Some maternity tops are a bit tent-like on me, so I've bought a few t-shirts in a larger size to get me through this weird phase.  The thing is, I buy something after trying it on, get it home, and hate it.  That's really nothing new with me, though.  But it's especially bad now.  Why can't I find anything that I'm ok with?

I don't know where I'm going with this post.....just frustrated after trying on clothes today.  My face is already puffy (I know, I know, eating Chick-fil-a for lunch doesn't help that problem), my arms are fat, my belly sticks out....like I said, gross!  And to think that I have to go through the summer months when I'll want/need to be wearing shorts and a swimsuit - GASP!  The thought makes me sick.  And I know the sight will make others sick too.  I want to look cute.  I want that glow!  But alas, I'll just have to deal with dull and flabby.  I think I'll just focus on dressing my little Sadie in cute summer clothes.  Maybe that will get my mind off of my own sad appearance.

Catching Up

Wow, it's been a long time.  My one loyal blog reader told me a couple of weeks ago that she misses reading my posts.  How sweet.  Let's see.....there was lots of morning/noon/night sickness for many weeks, Christmas, and now I'm stuck trying to think of anything exciting that has happened since the last time I wrote in December.

Sadie is growing like a weed and keeps me on my toes.  Oh, I know....lots of ear infections.  Sleeping has gotten a bit better, especially her naps.  She is still waking up in the night, but at least she's not awake for hours crying like before.

hhhmmm....what else?  Lots coming up in the near future.  A few trips to my parents' house, Easter, and a little getaway for Kris and me (without Sadie - sniff!).

Looking forward to spring and some inspiration on something interesting to write about!

Sick and Tired

That's what I am.  Sick and tired.  But not in the annoyed/mad sort of way.  I'm sick and tired in the literal pregnant sort of way.  Yeah, Sadie is going to have a brother or sister in July!  Hooray!